Many years back, while working an architectural photography gig, I noticed a fellow who appeared keenly interested, yet overtly resentful of my presence. After the shoot, he strolled up and introduced himself. He told me that he’d once been an avid photographer, but had recently lost all interest in it. I feigned curiosity in his tale — story arcs such as his are common, and I was rather certain his would follow a similar trajectory. As a hobby, photography’s instant gratification and accelerated learning curve makes it particularly enticing to people hoping to unlock their inner artist. But once the fledgling fervor fades and the credit card cools off, what they really discover is that photography — just like any art form — requires personal vision and dogged determination. Over the years, I’ve seen many a passionate photographer’s dreams disappear in a final puff of ennui.
His story, however, did not conclude with the usual admission of inspirational malaise, but with brazen bravado. He quit photography, he said, because he’d “learned the secret to being a great photographer,” and thus no longer felt inspired to take photos.
It was at this point that I ceased feigning interest and became genuinely attentive.
“You found the secret to photography?” I asked, somewhat incredulously.
“Yup. I realized it was all just a trick,” he responded. “Do you know what it is?”
I hadn’t a clue.
“It’s knowing where to put the camera!” he boasted, without waiting for my response. He glanced furtively over both shoulders then, to insure he wouldn’t be overhead, leaned in closer and added, “There’s only one place to put it, and once you know where that is, there’s nothing special about photography any more. It’s all just a trick.”
Instantly, my mind was awash with more questions than I could process, collate or articulate. Fortunately my new friend — having fully embraced the mentor role — intuited that I was a willing pupil, and happily offered additional explanation.
He told me that if he saw a photograph he knew someone had paid for — sometimes a landscape, but usually an architectural shot — he would go to that same location. Then, using the existing photo as a guide, he would find the exact spot where the original photographer had placed his camera. He would choose a matching focal length, lock the camera to the tripod and take a photo. “When I did this,” he said, “my photos were every bit as good as the pro’s. That’s when I knew it was all a trick.”
“But what makes it a trick?” I asked.
“If you put the camera in the right place, then you get the best shot,” he said. “Once you do that, there’s no difference between your photo and the one they paid for. In fact, they should have just hired me.”
“But the person who took the original photo was the one who had to actually find the right location for the camera,” I replied — amazed I was attempting to make some sort of logical counter-argument to what I thought was his rather irrational one.
“What do you mean?” he asked. “I would put the camera where they put it.”
“Right,” I said. “But they were there first. They didn’t have someone else’s photo to guide them. Their photo was the one that showed you where to put your camera.”
My friend grew agitated by my ignorance. “That’s not the point,” he huffed. “When you learn that there’s only one place to put the camera and you put it there, then you realize there’s nothing to photography. That’s why I don’t do it any more. It’s too easy. There’s no challenge.”
Throughout the ensuing years, this conversation has had a lasting and haunting effect on me. How can anyone so thoroughly fail to distinguish creation from re-creation? And if there is one and only one perfect place to put a camera, then how do you convey different moods? And why does drone photography even exist? Did we all just simultaneously discover that earth-bound camera locations aren’t so “perfect” after all? And what if you take photos of subjects that aren’t static? Anyone can go and stand where Alfred Eisenstaedt stood in August of 1945 — but that doesn’t mean they’ll snag a photo of a sailor kissing a nurse. And what about lighting the scene? Are we to believe the pro architectural photographer used only ambient lighting? Or that two landscape photos would be identical no matter the season, time or weather?
Curiously, each time I reflect on this conversation — and I reflect on it often — I actually grow more forgiving of my long gone but ne’er forgotten friend. In fact, over the years, I’ve come to admire him. Unlike most people, he had obviously embarked on his photographic journey with a mission. He had an end game — to reach a point at which he felt that he was capable of taking a photograph indistinguishable from a professional’s. Once he’d done this, in his mind, he’d “solved” the ultimate photographic challenge. There was nothing else the medium held for him because he viewed photography as a purely technical pursuit.
But in my current, post-commercial guise as a thoughtful and personal photographer, knowing where to put the camera is rather low on my list of concerns — right along with focus, color, sharpness, dynamic range, fidelity and literalness. So how do I measure my progress? What exactly is my end game? There must be some fundamental need that drives me. Some question that, once answered, would cause me to dust off my hands and hang up my cameras for good.
Obviously, I’m on some sort of path — as meandering as it might be. So where does it lead? Pausing to survey my present position, I discovered familiar surroundings — tell-tale indications that every creative journey I’d ever taken, regardless of the actual media, had followed a similar course. The simple fact is, the better I get at doing something that I care about, the fewer the number of people who actually appreciate it. My favourite ULTRAsomething articles will inevitably be inversely proportional to the number of people who read them. Friends who once asked me to “play something” on a musical instrument eventually altered their requests to “play something people might like.” My own wife, who used to say “you’re the photographer, you take the photos” now uses her iPhone to take the photos herself — because, as she said, she “knows how to take pictures that people like.”
No matter what I do, my goal is always the same — to improve. But unlike many people who seek to improve through external guidance or approval, I look within — for ways to push beyond the trite and expected; for untapped thoughts and unexplored avenues. If someone is well and truly guided by personal vision, then what could be a greater indicator of success than achieving a vision so personal, so unique, that the creator — and only the creator — could actually appreciate it?
And thus, my ultimate goal became obvious: to one day take a photograph that I — and only I — admired.
Now it’s important to note that this is not the same thing as taking a photograph no one admires. That’s something we’re all capable of accomplishing on a regular basis. Rather, I’m hoping to reach that point where only one person in the entire world is enamoured with a particular photo — and that one person is me. In doing this, I will have achieved the ultimate expression of personal vision, and my journey can finally end.
Thankfully, I have demonstrable evidence of my declining popularity, and thus know I’m getting closer to the end each and every year. Alas, there are still some people who claim to like what I do — so the finish line remains somewhere beyond the horizon. But at least I’m no longer exploring photography willy-nilly and without direction. Like my old mentor, I now have an end game.
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I had a similar realization recently. I’ve reached the point where my goal is no longer to satisfy those around me but rather to satisfy myself. I’m beginning to care very little for the opinion of others (much as that can hurt) in the knowledge that what I like and what other like rarely coincides. I suppose it takes a certain push to break free of the need for external validation. Photography has become less a means of communication and more a method of personal expression, to myself.
I really enjoy reading your blog, but can’t stand your photography.
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Yessss! The road to the finish line must be traversed one step at a time. Thanks Jeffrey.
Sorry dude, but I’m pushing your end game horizon further away – love your work. And I mean I REALLY love it. Still serious about buying the most erotic photograph in the world for a million, if I had it that is.
Do you feel the same about your music? I think it’s probably further away from the general publics’ opinion of ‘likeable’ than your photography is. If so, I’m sorry to say the same here – I really, really like it (not quite love yet, but that is only due to the fact that it’s harder for me to get a couple of hours undisturbed quality music listening than photo studying – my kids dislike my music taste). I started dabbling with soft synth modular ‘programming’ a little over a month ago (woho for Audulus!) and have listened to your work for inspiration and structure studies. I’m a 100% novice, but damn it is satisfying!
So, sorry but thanks!
/Emil
Ps. Appologies for bad spelling but I’m typing this on my phone in front of a warm little fire in the forest after a couple of cold beers. Kids asleep, wife with her book and I’m about to open Audulus after a good day of non-likable photography.
Emil: Yeah, I’m a bit shocked that the “Apparition” photo hasn’t sold yet. I might have to lower my asking price to the high six figures. (For those who don’t know what we’re talking about, see this article: http://ultrasomething.com/2014/12/a-measly-million/ )
I’ll be sure to up my game, and work harder to make photos you no longer like.
Regarding music: I consider myself much more “evolved” musically than photographically. Though many of the lessons I learned in photography came about after having first learned them in music — so I’ve been able to take a few substantial shortcuts along the way. But you’re probably right — my music is probably furthest along the path to utter oblivion.
Enjoy the musical experimentation. It is indeed a most satisfying pursuit.
You’ve got no hope pal, I happen to like your blog, your music AND your photography!
Peter: Well, crap. After Jeffrey’s email I had a glimmer of hope, though you and Emil have just squashed it. But thanks for the motivation! Even if I never manage to achieve my end game, it’s nice to know there are people who do enjoy the ride.
My God! This guy actually found the secret to ALL the arts. You just have to make exactly the same brush strokes with exactly the same paint and colors as Van Gogh, et voilà, you work will be of the same professional quality as his! Now if I could manage to use the exact same words in the exact same sequence as Shakespeare did…
On a different note: I hope you realize that in order to verifiably reach your end goal you will have to grow your audience to the whole Earth’s population…?
Gino: Excellent point about the verification factor. I’d been operating under the assumption that anyone not currently frequenting the ULTRAsomething site wouldn’t like it. But there is always the off-chance that someone might actually have the capacity to like my photos, but hadn’t discovered this site. After all, it’s not like I spend any effort on marketing or self-promotion.
I guess I’ll take the philosopher’s shortcut and assume “if someone hasn’t actually seen a photo, then (by the ‘tree falls in the forest with no one around’ law), they can’t possibly ‘like’ it.” Otherwise, as you point out, I’ll NEVER achieve my goal.
Thanks for the careful analysis of my flawed logic!
” … knowing where to put the camera is rather low on my list of concerns — right along with focus, color, sharpness, dynamic range, fidelity and literalness / … had followed a similar coarse … ”
Ah, the Freudian slip!
Impish characters, those silly vowels — constantly deceiving modern spell-checkers and making fools of us authors. Problem fixed (thus rendering your comment forever obtuse to future readers). Thanks!
I remain, Sir, your ever obtuse servant.
Hi
I only just come across your excellent blog and I’m really enjoying your points, reviews and the replies – I mostly agree, for what that’s worth. How do we improve – as you say that’s a decent goal. How do we trust our vision? That’s a question with a million answers.
Photography continues to amaze me, (after some 40 years of dabbling) looking at the different reactions photos get and the amazing number of ways we understand the same scene. To think there’s only one way and one place to take a shot is really sad. Obviously the thing about photography and art is how we all express in our own unique ways, hence the joy of seeing such different views of the world etc.
I actually have trouble with sharing my stuff, I have hardly ever show my photos other than with friends who I know will enjoy them.
To me, photography is a very personal thing and I’ve had some pretty unenthusiastic reactions to my work, considering that if you know me you know that photography is an important thing in my life. In the end we probably all want to share the things we’re enthusiastic about don’t we? But not with someone who is luke warm about the subject, whether its photos, music, food, cars.. that makes a passion an uphill challenge.
Now I’ve mentioned sharing, here they are -https://robbiepolley.smugmug.com/Other/Merrie-England
If you wish to comment be gentle please. I’m pretty aware of my weaknesses, mostly I just like to shoot whatever take my fancy – like most of us.
Dear Egor,
This is priceless: “When you learn that there’s only one place to put the camera and you put it there, then you realize there’s nothing to photography.” This sounds like a mysterious Zen saying. In fact, I agree that a main challenge of photography is knowing where, for you, is the unique place where you should put your camera. And also, as you point out in your essay above, knowing when to put it there. Once you have figured that out, the rest is indeed easy.
Regarding your photographs, I enjoy them. However, I rarely feel the need to put my camera where you put yours.
Wife: “what are you chortling about this evening?”
Me: “Of that guy with the inverted Maslow’s Hierarchy, I’m catching up. It’s such a treat.”
You End Game is a sort of photographic Googlewhack.
Fractured and Are-Bure-Boke-Matic were definitely waypoints on your quest. Indeed, if you re-read your own back catalogue you will probably find out you have laid out all the clues you need to know where to put the camera for that singular photonirvalusive click.
love your writing and way of seeing ,beautiful way of being.
thx, Siddho